another one

ask yourself this question: do I know where I'm going? The answer is no. go away, I didn't want to say this, but you forced me to. You didn't ask, so I went ahead. It didn't matter. I can't be more specific, it wouldn't be nice, it wouldn't be fair to either of us. To speak in cliches, to speak of speaking in cliches, to speak, to speak, to speak, to breathe, speak to breathe, breathe to speak, take a breath, take a word, take a number, stand in line, get in line, wait in line, wait, wait, wait, don't I know you, haven't I seen you somewhere before, you look familiar, get in line, I've heard that one before, here we go again, god I wish..., you know what I mean, I've heard that one before, I've heard that one before, I'm hearing it again, over and over and over, I hear them in my head, doc, the voices, what should I do, take two of these and call me in the morning, take two of these and call me, here's my number, hey I lost my number, can I have yours, I've heard that one before, I've heard that one before, I've heard that one before, I'm saying it again, I've said it all before, you've said it all before, it's all been said before, it's all been heard before, it's all herded together, they've herded them all together, here it is, packaged, bottled, packed for your inspection, appreciation, depreciation, fall in the stock market, jumping off buildings, we've heard it all before, we've heard it all before, we've heard it all before, all of it, all the calculations, the speculations, the epiphanies, there's a kind of beat here, there's a kind of beat, I'm trying to stay true to, I'm trying to stay true for you, I'm trying to stay true, I know it's what you wanted, I know I'm not what you wanted, but I'm trying to change myself for you, I'm trying to change myself to fit you, I'm trying to fit you, I'm trying to change you, I'm trying to change everything, I'm trying to shape it, I'm shaping it, I'm forcing myself on you, I want you to prove your love, I want to prove my love, I've heard that one before, you've heard that one before, let's try another, let's try another, for god's sake, let's try another, another one, a different one, something different, for a change, for a change, for a change, give me some change, will work for change, will work for food, will write for food, will eat for food, will eat for change, will change to eat, eating will change, food will change by eating, eating will change your food, eating will change you, writing will eat you, writing will change you, change will write you, reading will write you, reading will change you, reading will eat you, being eaten is the world, you want to be eaten, eating and being eaten, eat and be eaten, ego and superego, id and outside, in and out, in and out, out and in, up and down, further up, further in, dying and living, breathing and dying, breathing and not breathing, the air up there, the air up there, the air up there, give me a break, give me a break, for god's sake give me a break, just for once, one time, one time, just one more time.

2/1/99

Jim Genzano